Curt Doolittle

Form: Diary

  • (officially stupid. this time of year I can’t work 15 hours. useless. time for s

    (officially stupid. this time of year I can’t work 15 hours. useless. time for scifi B movies.)

    Source date (UTC): 2017-01-04 21:28:00 UTC

  • Like many people, I feel 2016 was one of the worst years of my life – a year mad

    Like many people, I feel 2016 was one of the worst years of my life – a year made bearable only by the gratification of not having to live in a world further influenced by the Clintons and watching the loss of the supreme court. (Albeit one that will be influenced by the Obamas.)

    Not that 2015 or 2014 were that much better: between my government’s immorality and consequential conversion of me from a radical to a revolutionary, and the decline of life Ukraine I had only the progress of my work in philosophy to enjoy. Thankfully I have people who I love and who love me. Without them I would see no point in continuing this journey. (really)

    I added many friends who I care about deeply and appreciate. I learned this year yet again who my friends are and who my friends aren’t. I learned this year yet again that I am too trusting, and that I hang on too long – counting on my own heroism. I learned that Veronika was right: most people just use you.

    I learned that there are enough men of conscience and character in this world that we can alter it for the better if we try. And I learned that despite my fears it will be possible.

    And to mirror the words of my friend Ayelam, I am coming to terms with being a bit insane – and that such insanity is merely the early adoption of a state of mind prior to it’s evolution into a normative state of mind. And that like many men who have come before us, we can be thought mad, foolish, troublesome, or dangerous. And ignored, ridiculed, ostracized, or persecuted.

    I start 2017 with pretty clear objectives: launching the product, creating a course (video classes) for propertarianism, and working to complete the book that now suffers from my need to split my time in three directions at once. I feel I need to make one more heroic effort. But afterward, the dreams (and money) will again flourish, and I can continue the effort of a lifetime.

    Love to all.

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-31 18:07:00 UTC

  • (diary) Got to spend some high quality time with my daughter Caitie and her ‘man

    (diary)

    Got to spend some high quality time with my daughter Caitie and her ‘man’ over the holiday. Awesome lady (in the new England tradition) and she’s found an awesome guy. One thing she has mentioned is that American men ‘lack conservatism’. And looking at her cohort, I agree. Although I would say that lack knowledge, wisdom, character, and a spine.

    ( Unfortunately, due to divorce restrictions, under which my ex-wife captured her fear that I would evolve into precisely what I have (a revolutionary radical), I am not permitted to show photos of certain offspring lest they come to some harm by association. … Among other amazing traits, she had a great deal of foresight. )

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-29 18:06:00 UTC

  • All I want for Christmas is a few worthy critics, the love of a good woman, and

    All I want for Christmas is a few worthy critics, the love of a good woman, and the continued friendship of great people.

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-24 12:30:00 UTC

  • Ok. So in the next couple of months I have enough work to do, for thee people. N

    Ok. So in the next couple of months I have enough work to do, for thee people. No idea how I am going to get it all done….

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-17 19:59:00 UTC

  • ( I wear a baseball cap a lot because it cuts down on my visual field, and there

    ( I wear a baseball cap a lot because it cuts down on my visual field, and therefore visual noise, and makes my aspie brain happier. And yes, I am aware, thanks to Jim Beebe, that it reduces my IQ by twenty points. )

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-17 19:57:00 UTC

  • I look at ordinary men and I love them. Fathers and their children. Families. I

    I look at ordinary men and I love them. Fathers and their children. Families. I love them and admire them because I cannot be them. I cannot find joy in those things that they find joy – any more than they can find joy in those things that I find joy.

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-16 12:11:00 UTC

  • ( My son inherited ‘the gift’. Creativity and extraordinary detail. OMG I wanna

    ( My son inherited ‘the gift’. Creativity and extraordinary detail. OMG I wanna cry. He’s awesome. It’s beautiful. Got it about the same age. I’m a happy dad. Perfect daughter, and now perfect son. Sigh. )

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-14 18:46:00 UTC

  • ( Is it ok if I get wasted tonight? Because I’m sorta … well, i haven’t had a

    ( Is it ok if I get wasted tonight? Because I’m sorta … well, i haven’t had a good week on this end. And it’s… sorta killin’ me. lol )

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-13 21:03:00 UTC

  • (Um. Everyone in this house is … well, celebrating the whole legalization thin

    (Um. Everyone in this house is … well, celebrating the whole legalization thing. My car is shop-bound so I used Uber for the first time today. And Redmond is now NYC – except all the drivers are stoned.

    Talking to some other guys today. Their budget for smoking is about parallel to that of their food budget.

    The whole world has changed here.

    Not for the good either.)

    Source date (UTC): 2016-12-11 19:22:00 UTC