Category: Personal Reflections and Diary

While I’ve been plagued with serious illnesses since college, I have for some reason falsely considered myself a healthy person. Since 2001, after each surgery, I seem to feel quite a bit better. After this last one, I feel radically different. It’s dramatic. I’d come to treat feeling bad as normal. A sort of constant subtle pain.

One of the problems with the alpha male tendency to consider one’s self invulnerable, is that it’s patently false. And reality eventually catches up to you. 🙂 It turns out we are all human after all.

18 HOURS LATER: STILL WRITING CODE AT MIDNIGHT

On a leather couch, by a fireplace, outside a restaurant and bar.

Ears full of Staind, Breaking Benjamin, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Evanessence, Katatonia, 12 Stones. The occasional Alice in Chains, Nirvana and Nickelback.

Heaven for a nerd: a tricky business problem, a laptop, good music, the white noise of happy chatter, and access to food. Absolutely priceless.

Offices are a curse. 🙂

RAPID DECLINE IN SULPHITE INTOLERANCE

I guess it worked. Catsup is back on the menu. So is hot sauce. So is bacon. So is some red wine. It’s not that I don’t feel anything. It’s that I don’t seem to be getting the allergic reaction. Not at all. Unfortunately MSG still does it’s horrible hatchet job on dopamine channels. Ran into that by accident the other day, and again today – despite labeling to the contrary, I’m a bit dizzy from it. But while I can avoid MSG carefully, damned sulphites are in everything.

So thank you Dr’s Botoni and Nguyen for removing my toxic organ. 🙂

BP 100/68, pulse 60

Seem to be shrinking a bit.(don’t have extra to part with)

Liver levels normalizing.

Color good. Sutures healing well. Still fighting respiratory infection.

Not sure why blood pressure so low even on a cup of coffee but it is causing me problems. Dizzy a lot. Give it a few more days but may have to cut the bp med again until my stress level increases again.

Amanda found an interesting set of studies that imply childhood measles may persist at low levels producing sulfite intolerance. Going to have to look at that some more.

DOC SAYS NO CRUNCHES

But otherwise weights are ok.

Am still at 168. But have lost muscle mass. mostly thighs and arms. Like to hover at 172 I think with about ten more lbs muscle.

A RETURN TO WRITING SOON?

This nasty bit of illness has just killed my desire and ability to write for the past few months. So I’ve resorted to entertaining myself with warm and fuzzy personal stuff. But, now that it’s mostly behind me, this morning, I went through just the short term work I have to do for the book I wanted to finish this year and was a little overwhelmed by what remains. But its ever onward anyway. 🙂