Curt Doolittle

Form: Diary

  • Reading Habits

    —“What’s your reading schedule look like? Do you take a structured approach or just wander about at random? Are you still reading a lot these days?”– A Friend Um… I go through all the economics, hbd, archeological, blogs every day, and if a paper or article looks interesting, or if a book is recommended I add it to my list. I write when i’m fresh. I scan blogs when i’m no longer fresh, and read the papers right away, and then read the books when I’m tired. When I read the books I follow Adler’s advice: I scan the table of contents, scan a few pages, look for the central argument, read that, and rarely do I read all the ‘filler’ around it. Most books can be summarized in a paper, and the best books start out as papers. If I don’t understand something or if I disagree with something I read more until I can tell if the author is making an error or not. (Which is far easier than you’d think.) If I want to read something and thoroughly understand it I will import it somehow – usually into pdf, and have my machine read it to me while I’m doing something else. I rarely do one thing at a time. And authors typically present information too slowly. (hence why I am a fan of gary stanley becker.) That said I read certain authors no matter what they write. But I write far more than I read. Why? I read a great deal before I started writing. And the rate of change is something that I can keep up with pretty easily (outside of materials science… and in particular chemistry, which has always offended my autism). I don’t like getting my hands dirty, like finger painting, or gardening, and my memories of chemistry and biology are nothing bug icky stuff that smells bad. lol
    May 14, 2018 1:14pm

  • Reading Habits

    —“What’s your reading schedule look like? Do you take a structured approach or just wander about at random? Are you still reading a lot these days?”– A Friend Um… I go through all the economics, hbd, archeological, blogs every day, and if a paper or article looks interesting, or if a book is recommended I add it to my list. I write when i’m fresh. I scan blogs when i’m no longer fresh, and read the papers right away, and then read the books when I’m tired. When I read the books I follow Adler’s advice: I scan the table of contents, scan a few pages, look for the central argument, read that, and rarely do I read all the ‘filler’ around it. Most books can be summarized in a paper, and the best books start out as papers. If I don’t understand something or if I disagree with something I read more until I can tell if the author is making an error or not. (Which is far easier than you’d think.) If I want to read something and thoroughly understand it I will import it somehow – usually into pdf, and have my machine read it to me while I’m doing something else. I rarely do one thing at a time. And authors typically present information too slowly. (hence why I am a fan of gary stanley becker.) That said I read certain authors no matter what they write. But I write far more than I read. Why? I read a great deal before I started writing. And the rate of change is something that I can keep up with pretty easily (outside of materials science… and in particular chemistry, which has always offended my autism). I don’t like getting my hands dirty, like finger painting, or gardening, and my memories of chemistry and biology are nothing bug icky stuff that smells bad. lol
    May 14, 2018 1:14pm

  • Happy birthday princess. Love you very much. So proud of you. So did you do anyt

    Happy birthday princess. Love you very much. So proud of you.

    So did you do anything fun? Presents? Hugs? Dinner out? 😉

    -hugs

    Source date (UTC): 2018-05-11 14:43:00 UTC

  • ( i have the feeling I’m not going to get much useful done this morning. the “zo

    ( i have the feeling I’m not going to get much useful done this morning. the “zone” is out there somewhere beyond my reach. so maybe it’s errands in the AM and work in the PM today. ’cause nobody’s home upstairs….. I have one serious topic in mind that I want to think thru. And that’ll take me a few hours…. )

    Source date (UTC): 2018-05-11 08:08:00 UTC

  • It’s the Truth That’s Unkind

    You know, for the sake of relationships I try to keep quite a bit to myself. That’s why I use distractions of teasing, play, and buffoonery to circumvent many topics. And you know, I thought my wife walked on water. You can’t imagine. But once in a while things leak out under autistic duress. “I am not a life support system for a vagina. Either a marriage is mutually beneficial or it is not. I have to be happy too.” I was like — “Wow, was that my outside voice. That stuff is NEVER supposed to come out of the cage….” lol Or “Do you always tell your friends that you despise your husband?” Or “Did you know a marriage is over once your face shows a disgust response, and it’s only a matter of time?” These events were rare. I think my wife and I had two fights during our marriage, and even our agreement to divorce was civil. And even then she said one of them wouldn’t have happened but she misunderstood me. And again, I still think all things considered she walks on water. People sometimes think I’m unkind but I think I’m extremely patient and considerate given what generally goes through my mind while their speaking. It’s the truth that’s unkind.

  • It’s the Truth That’s Unkind

    You know, for the sake of relationships I try to keep quite a bit to myself. That’s why I use distractions of teasing, play, and buffoonery to circumvent many topics. And you know, I thought my wife walked on water. You can’t imagine. But once in a while things leak out under autistic duress. “I am not a life support system for a vagina. Either a marriage is mutually beneficial or it is not. I have to be happy too.” I was like — “Wow, was that my outside voice. That stuff is NEVER supposed to come out of the cage….” lol Or “Do you always tell your friends that you despise your husband?” Or “Did you know a marriage is over once your face shows a disgust response, and it’s only a matter of time?” These events were rare. I think my wife and I had two fights during our marriage, and even our agreement to divorce was civil. And even then she said one of them wouldn’t have happened but she misunderstood me. And again, I still think all things considered she walks on water. People sometimes think I’m unkind but I think I’m extremely patient and considerate given what generally goes through my mind while their speaking. It’s the truth that’s unkind.

  • I dunno. I loved my wife more than life itself, for the better part of twenty ye

    I dunno. I loved my wife more than life itself, for the better part of twenty years. I was a better person, happier, more successful with her than without. We had an enviable marriage for a very long time, and were the consummate power couple. Unfortunately illness did to me and our marriage what friction does to most – I did not survive cancer and consequent illnesses the same person, and for a long time saw nearly every stress, obligation and demand a life threatening burden. I have loved every woman I’ve shared life with, and cherish each of them. So I don’t have the same opinion of other men. My chief argument is against the legal system that is so against men now, that it is literally suicidal to get married and have children. Never again let pandora out of the political box. But I adore women. Always and everywhere.

    Source date (UTC): 2018-05-06 20:20:00 UTC

  • —“WHAT WERE YOU LIKE AT 20?”—

      When I was 20? I don’t know if I can answer truthfully I was in college, I had a hot girlfriend I was crazy about, had good friends, was doing ok art, had not much money but enough, and was otherwise pretty happy as far as I know. I had the same sensibilities. but like most aspies my mind was still forming and in retrospect that’s how I see that period. In my mind I was not very different from today. But that’s probably just my mind playing tricks on me. I think 22 sucked after breaking up with my girlfriend, and it ruined my college experience also. So I threw myself into business and women and it worked out after a bit. But I had a bit of personal confusion in there for a bit. I made a couple of mistakes. First was not transferring to philosophy, and second putting too much investment into my girlfriend. Third was I was just too tired all the time….. If I could do it over I would take out more loans and work follow my interest in argument and philosophy. The problem is wouldn’t have ended up where I have with all this amazing life experience having done so much amazing crazy stuff. TRUTH: While I had the benefit of being more than a little good looking, and a lot of confidence, I had a very hard time as a high functioning aspie and I used girlfriends (devotedly) to build my social circle, and to some degree to keep me attached to civil reality. I have continued to do this throughout my life. This was a mistake. Most of the men I respect avoid ‘entanglements’ and build assets and that was my original disposition. I should have stayed with it. In other words, women are extremely expensive and a poor return until after you accumulate assets. So rent rather than buy the merchandise. The problem is your testosterone misleads you as much as estrogen misleads women.

  • —“WHAT WERE YOU LIKE AT 20?”—

      When I was 20? I don’t know if I can answer truthfully I was in college, I had a hot girlfriend I was crazy about, had good friends, was doing ok art, had not much money but enough, and was otherwise pretty happy as far as I know. I had the same sensibilities. but like most aspies my mind was still forming and in retrospect that’s how I see that period. In my mind I was not very different from today. But that’s probably just my mind playing tricks on me. I think 22 sucked after breaking up with my girlfriend, and it ruined my college experience also. So I threw myself into business and women and it worked out after a bit. But I had a bit of personal confusion in there for a bit. I made a couple of mistakes. First was not transferring to philosophy, and second putting too much investment into my girlfriend. Third was I was just too tired all the time….. If I could do it over I would take out more loans and work follow my interest in argument and philosophy. The problem is wouldn’t have ended up where I have with all this amazing life experience having done so much amazing crazy stuff. TRUTH: While I had the benefit of being more than a little good looking, and a lot of confidence, I had a very hard time as a high functioning aspie and I used girlfriends (devotedly) to build my social circle, and to some degree to keep me attached to civil reality. I have continued to do this throughout my life. This was a mistake. Most of the men I respect avoid ‘entanglements’ and build assets and that was my original disposition. I should have stayed with it. In other words, women are extremely expensive and a poor return until after you accumulate assets. So rent rather than buy the merchandise. The problem is your testosterone misleads you as much as estrogen misleads women.

  • “WHAT WERE YOU LIKE AT 20?”— When I was 20? I don’t know if I can answer truth

    —“WHAT WERE YOU LIKE AT 20?”—

    When I was 20? I don’t know if I can answer truthfully I was in college, I had a hot girlfriend I was crazy about, had good friends, was doing ok art, had not much money but enough, and was otherwise pretty happy as far as I know. I had the same sensibilities. but like most aspies my mind was still forming and in retrospect that’s how I see that period. In my mind I was not very different from today. But that’s probably just my mind playing tricks on me.

    I think 22 sucked after breaking up with my girlfriend, and it ruined my college experience also. So I threw myself into business and women and it worked out after a bit. But I had a bit of personal confusion in there for a bit.

    I made a couple of mistakes. First was not transferring to philosophy, and second putting too much investment into my girlfriend. Third was I was just too tired all the time….. If I could do it over I would take out more loans and work follow my interest in argument and philosophy. The problem is wouldn’t have ended up where I have with all this amazing life experience having done so much amazing crazy stuff.

    TRUTH: While I had the benefit of being more than a little good looking, and a lot of confidence, I had a very hard time as a high functioning aspie and I used girlfriends (devotedly) to build my social circle, and to some degree to keep me attached to civil reality. I have continued to do this throughout my life. This was a mistake. Most of the men I respect avoid ‘entanglements’ and build assets and that was my original disposition. I should have stayed with it. In other words, women are extremely expensive and a poor return until after you accumulate assets. So rent rather than buy the merchandise.

    The problem is your testosterone misleads you as much as estrogen misleads women.

    Source date (UTC): 2018-05-03 20:43:00 UTC