Jan 5, 2020, 3:52 PM (In my university, because I majored in Fine Art, you could take creative writing for credit every semester. I did. But, i’m too disagreeable and appreciative of the finer things to write works of fiction in poverty for two to four years at a time just so I can play lottery games with publishers. I won a scholarship voted by the professors two years in a row for the most likely to become a practicing artist. But I’m unsuited for poverty. I prefer technology, business, law, philosophy, politics and war. Literature is just writing philosophy but in slow motion for peanuts. )
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i’m too disagreeable and appreciative of the finer things
Jan 5, 2020, 3:52 PM (In my university, because I majored in Fine Art, you could take creative writing for credit every semester. I did. But, i’m too disagreeable and appreciative of the finer things to write works of fiction in poverty for two to four years at a time just so I can play lottery games with publishers. I won a scholarship voted by the professors two years in a row for the most likely to become a practicing artist. But I’m unsuited for poverty. I prefer technology, business, law, philosophy, politics and war. Literature is just writing philosophy but in slow motion for peanuts. )
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Aspiness is a superpower.
Jan 11, 2020, 10:47 AM I’m on the aspie borderline enough that as a child it was very stressful, as an adult an extraordinary competitive advantage, and as a mature adult a superpower. And so, it is far easier to learn social graces and small talk than to learn to master subject after subject after subject without effort. Aspiness is a superpower. Neurotypicals are relative primitives. But it takes more investment to mature an aspie. That’s the hard part. We are organized for neurotypicals. Sociopaths hire Aspies who hire neurotypicals who hire solipsists ASPIE/HFA EXPERIENCES
1. Sensory Overload 2. Problem with eye contact 3. Observing social interactions not participating 4. Social confusion when interacting 5. Extremely concerned with pain or sadness of others. 6. Crowd Anxiety 7. Monopolizing conversation 8. Sequence of obsessive interests Aspies live in an “intense world” Aspiness just causes social developmental delay. In exchange, causes system developmental acceleration. More neurons, fewer mirror neurons, Emotion Blindness The extreme male brain.
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Aspiness is a superpower.
Jan 11, 2020, 10:47 AM I’m on the aspie borderline enough that as a child it was very stressful, as an adult an extraordinary competitive advantage, and as a mature adult a superpower. And so, it is far easier to learn social graces and small talk than to learn to master subject after subject after subject without effort. Aspiness is a superpower. Neurotypicals are relative primitives. But it takes more investment to mature an aspie. That’s the hard part. We are organized for neurotypicals. Sociopaths hire Aspies who hire neurotypicals who hire solipsists ASPIE/HFA EXPERIENCES
1. Sensory Overload 2. Problem with eye contact 3. Observing social interactions not participating 4. Social confusion when interacting 5. Extremely concerned with pain or sadness of others. 6. Crowd Anxiety 7. Monopolizing conversation 8. Sequence of obsessive interests Aspies live in an “intense world” Aspiness just causes social developmental delay. In exchange, causes system developmental acceleration. More neurons, fewer mirror neurons, Emotion Blindness The extreme male brain.
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Richmond reset my brain a bit on strategy
Jan 21, 2020, 12:10 PM Richmond reset my brain a bit on strategy so I’m not talking about it yet. But the drive down and back, plus the pure spirituality of ‘all our men’ gave me needed think time. Mostly on european aesthetics and commons and our ‘group-think’ (formation sensitivity?) And how that’s possibly a cognitive european bias. Second was how evident it is that I love our people but that they just … they just need answers. I need understanding but they just need answers. I used some of it to re-listen to Fukuyama on bureaucracy and that gave me a few ideas too – not the least of which is that he doesn’t understand the correlation between anglo adversarial government and sovereignty. He doesn’t grasp that the inefficiency is a trade off for adaptability. But he’s right that the left has destroyed rule of law. He just doesn’t see that it’s fixable. He comes close but doesn’t get there. Sometimes it’s better to re-read these long works a few times because you get fresh ideas out of every read. Edit
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Richmond reset my brain a bit on strategy
Jan 21, 2020, 12:10 PM Richmond reset my brain a bit on strategy so I’m not talking about it yet. But the drive down and back, plus the pure spirituality of ‘all our men’ gave me needed think time. Mostly on european aesthetics and commons and our ‘group-think’ (formation sensitivity?) And how that’s possibly a cognitive european bias. Second was how evident it is that I love our people but that they just … they just need answers. I need understanding but they just need answers. I used some of it to re-listen to Fukuyama on bureaucracy and that gave me a few ideas too – not the least of which is that he doesn’t understand the correlation between anglo adversarial government and sovereignty. He doesn’t grasp that the inefficiency is a trade off for adaptability. But he’s right that the left has destroyed rule of law. He just doesn’t see that it’s fixable. He comes close but doesn’t get there. Sometimes it’s better to re-read these long works a few times because you get fresh ideas out of every read. Edit
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Fills me with joy.
Feb 1, 2020, 3:44 PM That feeling when your afternoon consists of a series of short phone calls from real men with real experience who testify that they’re all in on GO-day. Fills me with joy. Story of 2015->Present: Who is this doolittle guy? This guy talks word salad. This guy is crazy – it’ll never happen! The people will never do that! We’d never win because “X”. We might need to do something. I’ve been listening to john mark This is what we need, it’s what I”m looking for Thank you for all your work! I’m ready, Just say go! Pretty much as I said. The fire burns. The wyrm turns. And by the prickling Of my thumbs This way, revolution comes. Edit
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Fills me with joy.
Feb 1, 2020, 3:44 PM That feeling when your afternoon consists of a series of short phone calls from real men with real experience who testify that they’re all in on GO-day. Fills me with joy. Story of 2015->Present: Who is this doolittle guy? This guy talks word salad. This guy is crazy – it’ll never happen! The people will never do that! We’d never win because “X”. We might need to do something. I’ve been listening to john mark This is what we need, it’s what I”m looking for Thank you for all your work! I’m ready, Just say go! Pretty much as I said. The fire burns. The wyrm turns. And by the prickling Of my thumbs This way, revolution comes. Edit
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I wonder why anyone in america gets married
Apr 16, 2020, 7:14 PM ( When I listen to other couples talk I wonder why anyone in america gets married. What a bunch of ignorant, spoiled, self-indulgent, twits leading meaningless hamster-wheel lives, of obesity, virtue signaling, and social dysfunction from a failure to compete enough to learn to compromise. We don’t need man caves. We gotta build barracks for men so we can get away from the nests of harpies, and the harpies don’t have to deal with mansplaining they can’t understand anyway. It’s complete madness. I need to go back to eastern europe – western civ has gone mad. I can sit with a ukrainian woman in a cafe all day long with drinks and food, holding hands, chatting with friends, frittering time away on our phones, and sharing hugs and giggles and enjoying life like real human beings. America is full of addicts terrified of missing out on the next consumption signal, living in the world’s largest most elaborately decorated prison cells of their own making. These people are fking nuts. Really. )
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When I listen to other couples talk…
When I listen to other couples talk I wonder why anyone in america gets married. What a bunch of ignorant, spoiled, self-indulgent, twits leading meaningless hamster-wheel lives, of obesity, virtue signaling, and social dysfunction from a failure to compete enough to learn to compromise. We don’t need man caves. We gotta build barracks for men so we can get away from the nests of harpies, and the harpies don’t have to deal with mansplaining they can’t understand anyway. It’s complete madness. I need to go back to eastern europe – western civ has gone mad. I can sit with a ukrainian woman in a cafe all day long with drinks and food, holding hands, chatting with friends, frittering time away on our phones, and sharing hugs and giggles and enjoying life like real human beings. America is full of addicts terrified of missing out on the next consumption signal, living in the world’s largest most elaborately decorated prison cells of their own making. These people are fking nuts. Really.