Form: Diary

I love days like today when I can just run a few errands and pretend it’s 2016 and answer good questions on the web all day. It’s my version of a vacation day. 😉

Friday evening toying with the trolls.
😉

OTHER ODD ASPIE BEHAVIORS (CONFESSIONS)
I find I do it(rocking) when standing in a public area with lots of people because it helps me focus on them amid the overstimulation. A female colleague and I who were friendly (just friendly) were arm in arm talking to some employees and I started doing it … and she gave me an odd look and stopped me. lol. I had to explain later it’s involuntary.

I found, living in ukraine, that this is partly because I feel responsible for everyone and everything at all times. So in Ukraine I found that I could shut that off in a way I can’t do so in the States. So partly, that’s why I love living there.

Almost all people will forgive aspie behavior if you explain it to them, and laugh at yourself. Don’t expect them to respect it. Permit them to laugh at it. Most of the time I ask them to help me – especially if I talk too fast, in too much detail. Though as I’ve aged I have much more self control over it. 😉

I have one other odd one, which is that very very occasionally, when I’m under extreme stress, my left hand will do something ‘involuntary’. Like pick up a packet of sugar, or grab a drink or an Hors d’oeuvres, or something the right side of my brain considers soothing. ;). It’s very odd to have your body do something that looks deliberate only to realize you had no part in it. 😉

I have, on a very few rare occasions, maybe a handful, in very serious circumstances, said that teasing me is fine, but (a) they’re still teasing me about a disability and I don’t tease them about theirs – which would largely include their intelligence – since I consider them having that disability (b) and I won’t tolerate attacking my ideas because of my ‘twitches’ so to speak, because it’s simply dishonesty, fraud, sedition, or worse. This quiets the room and restores order instantaneously.

Thankfully I’m not interested in star wars, Japanese anime, or any other such nonsense, but human behavior and such. So I can get away with talking nonsense to people about fascinating things they don’t understand or even remotely care about. 😉

People are kind and gracious if you are kind and gracious too and I always try to be kind, gracious and gregarious whenever I can.

Why? Most people aren’t capable of serious discourse about serious things. They’re just human. And they prefer to leave that to people who are ok with doing it. 😉

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(Health Update)(personal)
Another incremental improvement. I have enough energy for minor household chores and such. I’ve even repaired a few electronic bits around the house. I can remember what day it is. The sense of background noise or confusion is mostly gone. I can sense subtle logical variations again. I can organize larger scopes of work again. I can hold most of the work in my head again – if not all of it, though I still can have trouble recalling the occasional noun. And my associative autobiographical memory is gradually returning. Which ‘they’ tell me is a very good sign.
Some of my mental recovery is due to the joy at making consistent progress on the work, even if I’m only capable of working two or three hours a day with someone from the team. But the team is dedicated and amazing and we work seven days a week, online, via zoom and it’s hard and tedious work.
And yes, I have to rest a great deal still – around 14 hours. But that rest is paying off. The only ‘oddity’ is that Peterson is right about the lion diet, at least for me, and the closer I get to it by eliminating what causes a reaction the better my health improves, and the closer my diet approaches the lion diet. Meaning my freezer is full and my refrigerator and cabinets are not. 😉
I’ve gone from being relatively certain I had not only lost my higher faculties, to barely being able to walk, and was increasingly concerned I would kick the bucket, to the point where I can see that within a year, I might be myself again. (God forbid. I know…) 😉
It’s thanks to my suite of doctors really, and in no small part to the encouragement of my many friends. Dr’s opinion was universal that if I just gave myself time I’d recover. And I’m glad they were more optimistic than I was.
Cheers to supporters, followers, friends, and those I love.
-Curt

In the states before I moved to UA, I drove a Jaguar xjr, a Ferrari F355, A porche (either 911 Turbo X50 or Boxster S), and a Toyota Tacoma. In UA I drove a wonderful Red Toyota MR2 – one of two in the country. Recently, in the USA, a Boxster S with a lot of lovely mods. At present I drive my deceased mother’s Toyota, at least until probate and court conflict is done and I can finally move. 😉 I would like to live where I don’t need a car, and have just a Vespa, but my life is complicated at present. 😉

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Love you Todd. lol

Reality: Allergies (we think) caused cancer. Cancer caused a compromised immune system. Because of compromised immune system, I had multiple illnesses. In particular, I keep catching pneumonia that’s increasingly hard to cure. Last time Sick in ’15. Cured in ’17. But then took full-time care of elderly mother thinking it was six months but it allowed her to live more than three more years, for me, under poor circumstances. And the stress and sleep deprivation made my health all worse. After she died I was able to get out of the house. In about 90 days I Caught covid. It wasn’t bad. But long covid lasted over a year and nearly ‘took me out’. No idea when I developed the low level pneumonia again during long covid, but it made it worse. Spent the past year and a half so far trying to recover. Only substantial progress since spring. Couldn’t really stand or walk much until march. Nor work more than two or three hours. Gradually improving and my faculties (that I thought were lost) are slowly returning to previous levels of ability.

Strict diet (mix between lion and carnivore) – though I do cheat a bit with pasta now and then. And requires a lot of water and sleep. Turns out my friends were right that caffeine was a major problem. So that’s out too.

Anyway, thanks for listening to my whining – if you did. 😉

Should I have taken care of my elderly mother? Very costly for me in money and health. Would I do it again? Absolutely, and I think everyone should. 😉

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(diary)(health update)
I don’t have this down yet but I’ve cut most of the variables out, and I was able to work almost five hours today. Unfortunately to do it requires a lot of sleep, a very careful diet, and no variation. But it’s better than one or two hours a day. 😉