Curt Doolittle

Form: Diary

  • MAIDAN TODAY : BRAVERY OR COWARDICE? I want to go to participate in the mob toda

    MAIDAN TODAY : BRAVERY OR COWARDICE?

    I want to go to participate in the mob today just to experience it. But V is passionately against it. ‘NuwOH!’ is now “no!’ sounds when she says it.

    🙂

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-08 02:22:00 UTC

  • Veronika is perched in the window overlooking the protesters walking by. Drinkin

    Veronika is perched in the window overlooking the protesters walking by. Drinking a little coffee. And she’s still in her robe. They guys keep tipping their hats and waving at her. The last one did a deep bow.

    Hysterical.

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-07 09:16:00 UTC

  • OK. ONE CRISIS AVERTED. (Personal) Two more to go. Take me a few days. 🙂 Lots o

    OK. ONE CRISIS AVERTED.

    (Personal)

    Two more to go. Take me a few days. 🙂 Lots of tylenol. Lots of sleep. But I’ll solve the rest of it. One way or another.

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-07 05:35:00 UTC

  • Posts: Even amidst personal catastrophe i work on philosophy. 🙂 (personal) (lam

    Posts: Even amidst personal catastrophe i work on philosophy. 🙂

    (personal) (lament)

    Although I think i’ve made some amazing progress lately, what I think I have learned from my work is not particularly comforting for someone who loves liberty more than life. I am becoming convinced that liberty is a niche solution to hardship that is highly eugenic, and highly productive, but I am not sure that without environmental ‘mass’ (universalism) of the nuclear family, and a militia determined to fight for it, that it CAN exist. It is an aristocratic social model. Entirely aristocratic.

    I think people who desire liberty, and the nuclear family, will be like christians in the Lebanon. Wealthy until the proletarians kill them out of envy. The social result of the Dunning Krueger effect: “we are oppressed” rather than ” they do it better than we do”.

    LAMENT

    Tough couple of decades. Illness, divorce, cancer, illness 2, divorce 2, cancer 2, disease 3, losing millions, Watching others ruin the business you built over a decade. Fighting against my own government, that has no moral constraint. At this point I feel like I’m working in a war zone.

    Bast week has been absolutely crushing. I just recovered physically and mentally in, maybe August? So I’ve sort of had four good months now. And like a good warrior I soldier on. Try to make sure my family will be taken care of. (No one else will).

    No mater what I do it turns to money. But at this point I’m sort of falling apart from all the accumulated wear and tear. 🙂

    Thanks V. 🙂

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-06 06:28:00 UTC

  • “DID I REALLY WRITE THAT?” Sometimes I write something, which is purely deductiv

    “DID I REALLY WRITE THAT?”

    Sometimes I write something, which is purely deductive, and it’s just the result of following some arc of logic; And, then, I look at it and I say “Wow. That’s brilliant. I am not smart enough to write that. Did I really just write that down? On my own?”

    I can’t figure out if I love these moments or fear them. Because the part of me that constructs those arguments is… it’s, mechanical. It’s not ‘me’ in any sense of the word. I sort of question whether “I” am present at all. The “I” is merely an observer of a scene writing down what he sees. The construction of the scene is happening almost entirely without by willful direction. Its like dreaming. But dreaming logic. I’m watching the dream. But I’m not sure who or what is constructing it other than some involuntary feedback loop in memory.

    Strange. Frightening. Beautiful.

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-02 11:42:00 UTC

  • NOVEL EXPERIENCE: RESPECT Interesting. This is what it feels like to respect the

    NOVEL EXPERIENCE: RESPECT

    Interesting.

    This is what it feels like to respect the people you live in society with.

    I don’t think I’ve felt like this before.

    It’s beautiful.

    I love Ukraine.

    #ukraine #euromaidan #kiev

    Source date (UTC): 2013-12-01 13:17:00 UTC

  • Nov 23, 2013

    Nov 23, 2013

    Source date (UTC): 2013-11-29 05:36:00 UTC

  • Dinner at Tarrantino steak house with Johannes Meixner Awesome. 😉

    Dinner at Tarrantino steak house with Johannes Meixner

    Awesome. 😉

    Source date (UTC): 2013-11-27 11:02:00 UTC

  • Dear Gods. Thank you for helping me get my health back. With my health came my l

    Dear Gods.

    Thank you for helping me get my health back. With my health came my love for people again. Thanks for giving me the wisdom to simplify my life. And in doing so possibly save it. Thanks for my friends and family, without whom it would have been impossible.

    Every day. A little better. A little stronger. A little smarter. And a lot happier.

    It’s a trickle, not a torrent, but I’m getting there.

    Source date (UTC): 2013-11-24 14:05:00 UTC

  • DANCING I can dance you know, thanks to my mother’s patiently teaching me. Veron

    DANCING

    I can dance you know, thanks to my mother’s patiently teaching me. Veronika is an AMAZING dancer. And, it’s such a pleasure to dance with a woman who actually CAN dance. Who doesn’t fight your lead. Or who confuses steps with moving together as a single unit. Or who confuses simply rhythmic reaction to the base, with sweeping dance moves as a couple. It’s awesome.

    Gotta do more of it. Just awesome. 🙂

    Source date (UTC): 2013-11-24 06:43:00 UTC