Morning. Restaurant. Window seat.
Couple. 40-ish. Sitting opposite one another.
One hand for coffee.
One hand across the table.
Gently holding one another’s.
It’s not new romance.
It’s too relaxed. Too familiar.
It’s love that has stayed fresh through good maintenance.
Love it. Beautiful. It made my morning.
Humans are awesome creatures.
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-26 03:29:00 UTC
(sick as hell today. the girls brought me a christmas tree, snickers bars, and some coca cola. with smiles. made my day. I had a fantasy that we would finish oversing v1 by christmas and I could go home for the holiday and see family.)
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-24 10:13:00 UTC
oops… too much caffeine this morning. Dizzy, dizzy, and that means I’ll crash at 4:00 pm.
Where are Andy Curzon, Don Finn and Johannes Meixner to discipline me when I need them?
lol
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-23 03:53:00 UTC
I remember talking to Robert Miles when I was very angry about what I saw as the consistent immorality and self destructive behavior at Microsoft. And I said that once I sold the company I never wanted to deal whit them again. Now, that’s not true any longer. But it was a measure of my exasperation with them at the time.
You know, management in a company like Microsoft which has dramatic impact on a local economy (Seattle, Redmond, Bellevue, Sammamish, Issaquah, Renton and the islands – and more). I saw changes at microsoft made on a whim, that destroyed lives and businesses in droves. I watched products that had potential killed over the most absurd nonsense. I saw products that would change the market killed by politicking. All of it was avoidable.
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-21 10:32:00 UTC
MOST IMPORTANT LIFE MOMENTS.
University. Classroom. Contract Law. Specifically how to make your case in one page.
Professor emeritus. 85 year old. Shambling fellow. Suit. Arm full of books. From Columbia university.
After I answer a hard question, he asks me if I went to catholic school. I say yes.
Later, he say “The world is not built for us. It is built for average people. We cannot expect or wish that it was built for us. We would never be happy if we did. We can only help average people build a better world.”
I must have needed to hear that very badly at my 19 years of age. It gave me permission to forgive and a mission to help. Unlike Nietzsche’s vision, it gave me permission to set myself apart. And to help and teach rather that convince and persuade.
I remember reading Pareto and it was then that I understood the world was built for production and reproduction using the people that we have. And that a small number of people concentrate the wealth necessary to voluntarily organize that production.
It was only in the past few years that I realized that the only way to make the world better was to reduce the friction created by the underclasses.
They are a boat anchor on mankind.
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-20 04:14:00 UTC
My friend Odo (sounds like ooh-doh, and I think is an old form of Otto) is maybe less than ten years older than I. And he has staked out a wonderful life managing an exceptional boutique hotel and restaurant.
He works long hours but gets to socialize with interesting people. And to pass off the les interesting on the staff. He is a social fixture here.
I love his soul.
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-18 12:54:00 UTC
SOME DAYS ARE MADE FOR…
Some days you just want to take a significant other, let it rain, go to a four star hotel, and spend the next twenty four hours alternating between ‘close relations’, sleeping and room service.
Today is one of those days. Sigh…..
You know, if electric lighting and central heating means we spend less time staying warm under the covers with each other, I think we should save the hydrocarbons and return to our natural state. 🙂
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(And no. I’m just dreaming. I’m working on our web site instead.)
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-18 03:23:00 UTC
(life lessons)
My wife Allora and I used to shower together in the morning before work. It was the best talk-time for our relationship. You get at least 15 minutes of relative verbal intimacy during the day to talk about what’s on your mind, get some hugs, and make sure you are both ‘in sync’ on your lives. Smart woman. She was a very smart woman. About everything.
My first wife Kitty’s parents had six kids and so they spent a weekend at a hotel once a month. Which I thought was brilliant. But for me, for us, the 15-30 minute showers in the morning, were better for staying mentally close.
Since I have a little trouble seeing emotions, and I have more trouble understanding my own, talking intimately with the woman I love is not only desirable but a necessity. And it’s one of the reasons I think we had what most people considered an enviable relationship.
I loved being married. I love that level of intimacy. I don’t feel ‘complete’ without it. And maybe that is why I worship the women in my life so completely.
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-17 00:46:00 UTC
(Dear self. It is not your job to fix everything, save everyone, help everyone. And many people cannot be helped, do not want to be helped, and if you help them you will of necessity bear the risk of failing in helping them. So just as we are better off letting sleeping dogs lie, it is sometimes better to leave troubled people alone, rather than end up bearing the consequences of helping them.)
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-15 14:56:00 UTC
(memories)
I remember being at 4H camp, I was no more than maybe 13?
And the prize we won at the competition that day, was that the ‘grownup’ girl counsellors would tuck us in kiss us good night.
I didn’t think that was terribly good at the time.
I can still smell her hair, and feel her kiss on my cheek, and the pressure of the sheets and blankets as she tucked me in.
I was probably stunned and stupified for a week…
Not erotic at all. Just stunned.
It was awesome. 🙂
Source date (UTC): 2015-12-14 13:43:00 UTC