(diary entry): (I always try to leave the room rather than lose my temper with o

(diary entry): (I always try to leave the room rather than lose my temper with others. I do not like to argue. I don’t find arguing produces much good. And I know from experience that letting my rather painfully articulate verbal weaponry loose can have long-term deleterious effects upon people and relationships. So it is better to leave. Meanwhile I get into relationships with women who have no freaking clue, and tell me to stay and fight with them – not knowing what they’re asking. And worse you know, my father was a violent person, whose life I planned ending and came a hair’s breadth from on a half dozen occasions -and I have worked very hard to bury that part of me so far down that it cannot ever get out again. So I find it is much better to exorcize anger in writing, or walking, or sleeping than it is to exorcize it verbally, of physically. And I am not terribly interested in the opinions of well-intentioned fools who think otherwise. ergo. I now feel a little better. )