Theme: Agency

  • THE BEAUTY OF THE BRAIN We are terribly simple in our reasoning ability: “We are

    THE BEAUTY OF THE BRAIN

    We are terribly simple in our reasoning ability:

    “We are trying to deal with an increasingly complex and chaotic world with biological brains that are fundamentally unsuited to the task. We can only deal with three to five variable/topics/tasks at a time – yet we live in a world where we are often faced with hundreds at the same time,” he said.

    “We therefore need augmentation, a symbiotic relationship with our machines – a partnership if you will – to help us cope and prosper as we go into the future.”

    IBM-DARPA SyNAPSE


    Source date (UTC): 2013-09-02 12:57:00 UTC

  • MORE ON AUTISM, ASPIE-NESS AND LIFE You know, I had a very troubled childhood an

    MORE ON AUTISM, ASPIE-NESS AND LIFE

    You know, I had a very troubled childhood and it gave me my desire for success – financial and environmental independence so that I would be free of the terrible decisions of others. I have sort of two subconscious drivers from that childhood: I have to protect everyone, and I have to have enough money to be safe – and safe from ‘ordinary people’.

    Back in the 60’s, 70’s and 80’s being an Aspie was not a very easy thing. Everyone is ‘harshing’ on your happiness all the time – telling you that you will be happier if you do what other people do. Except all that stuff seems really stupid and boring and i’d really rather either read science fiction or an encyclopedia or try to figure out how to arrange my room differently. OK? It’s just really bizarre.

    I actually went through childhood thinking that the world was full of idiots and crazy people – like zombies – but that they were in charge so I needed to get along with them and help them. I was never non-conformist. I mean, these poor fools are trying to run the world right? OMG. I dont’ want to make it even worse! If I help them a little bit they don’t annoy me too much and I can read science fiction and try to draw the internal wood structures of these victorian houses by imagining what’s behind the clapboards.

    Really. I swear to god. That is how I thought.

    WOMEN

    Women can make it worse. They are really awesome creatures. They are like the best-est most wonderfuly-good-smelling, soft, yummy things in the world PLUS they can explain emotions and stuff like that to you and it makes the world a LOT less exasperating. And you just have to be nice to them, listen to them, do stuff for them and give them your money. And it’s like magic. They make you part of the real world.

    And because they’re really good smelling, and soft and fascinating and helpful and stuff, they make you connect with the world. You don’t sort of fall into your head for three weeks at a time and then come up for air without any knowledge of time passing.

    But, the problem is, that they want you to feel all this stuff. And you say “Well, you know, it’s not like I don’t want to. It’s that I don’t and I can’t feel what you feel. I mean, if someone is color blind, you don’t criticize them because they can’t tell the difference between red and green. But it’s not OK, and you can somehow criticize me if I can’t tell the difference between bored and angry facial expressions.”

    Now if you TELL me how you feel I can understand that. But I can’t SEE it unless you tell me. ‘It all looks the same to me. I rely on body language because that seems to work. But I have to concentrate to use it. And if I am thinking about something terribly fascinating like how they manufactured the parts to this chair here, or how the water vapor accumulates over this geography, I won’t notice your body language. Really. Its not that interesting. I’m sorry. It’s not.

    Other Aspies and ASD’s are really interesting because they talk about interesting stuff. They are fun to be around. It is the only time we feel really normal. ‘Cause other people think like us. Really smart normals tend to think a lot like us too. But they have all these verbal ticks and status cues that are really annoyingly confusing.

    SERIOUSNESS

    So I did my duty. I got educated. I got married. I got wealthy. I ran companies. I built companies. I got cancer a couple of times. I got very sick a couple more times.

    And you know, I sort of had this incredible epiphany that none of it really mattered. I mean, It’s great to prove that you CAN do something. You should experience all the life that you can while we have it. But that doesn’t mean you want to do a lot of it.

    Now, for me, business is trivially easy. Seriously. I can develop strategy on just about any business there is, because I’m fascinated with economics and collecting information about any given business. I never, ever get tired of it. And it’s so freaking obvious that I can’t understand why people do it WRONG so often. (They should read Karl Popper and Austrian economics.)

    So I have had my fancy cars, and my two houses and my corporations and my travel-lifestyle, and I wasn’t happy at all. Because I’d have do force myself to adjust all the time. It was really interesting. Really. Fun. And really no one can ever say to me that I can’t do anything. ‘Cause I can do it repeatedly even if I haven’t got a cent to start with.

    THE WHY

    But I realize that the only reason I do this stuff is so that I can have a woman, and afford to have a woman, and have her explain the world and insulate me from the world. But that it’s circular. It’s working for having a woman that is actually making me unhappy. If I have to do this to have a woman, then I either need a different one, or not to have one at all.

    Instead, if I loved my Aspiness, rather than fought for normalness, I would be a lot happier. I would work and write on a problem that requires a whole lot of thinking. I would work at the part of work I like rather than the part I had to in order to maintain my control over a whole lot of people. I wouldn’t be sick all the time. I wouldn’t be stressed all the time. And I might live a bit longer too.

    The problem then, either doing without a woman by learning to connect with the world on your own. Or finding a woman who isn’t wrapped up in all this materialism stuff that they find so absurdly fascinating. Someone who doesn’t want you to feel differently than you feel. Or feel what you can’t.

    I set out to do both.

    VICTORY

    I am really good at connecting with the world. I can work a room like nobody’s business. I just had to live in a place with high population density so that I’m around people I can readily interact with all the time. So I do.

    I try to avoid television and computer games and to work instead. And only use entertainment when I cannot do anything else. Not as a form of medication.

    I am perfectly fine on my own now. Although I have trouble training women still. For some reason they keep chasing me. I tell them its a bad idea, but they keep at it. 🙂

    So, now I have my political and economic philosophy to obsess over, I have a small company that doesn’t have any debt, I produce something I believe in, and I work with really smart nerdy folk who understand and appreciate me. I try to have as few possessions as I can. And that last bit is really important to me. I try not to change contexts too much. Travel is something I reserve for necessity. I live in what is for me the best place on earth.

    I love my inner Aspie and I dont fight it. I feed it. I care for it. And I am happy.

    Cash is freedom. Possessions are a prison. Marry your work. Love everyone you can as much as possible. That’s bad for a consumption economy but it’s really good for us.

    And I suspect that it is something more men should think about. Because Atusim is just MALENESS exaggerated a LOT.

    It’s just sad that it took me more than half my life to figure it out.

    Cheers


    Source date (UTC): 2013-09-01 16:11:00 UTC

  • AUTISM AND THINKING vs LEARNING AND EXPERIENCING I watched a video today about s

    AUTISM AND THINKING vs LEARNING AND EXPERIENCING

    I watched a video today about some young boy with autism who is an early entrant to college. His basic point is that learning isn’t the same as thinking. And if you’re motivated to think, then structured learning is really just an obstacle that gets in the way of your thinking.

    When I tell people “I learned everything on my own. School and university were just excuses to be around people, in a social environment. I didn’t learn anything in the classes, I learned everything from books.” They look at me with disbelief.

    But it’s true.

    I would go to the bookstore. Pick the classes with the books I liked. Read them. Vaguely listen in class. The ‘order’ of the classroom and the speech pattern of the teacher or professor is extremely relaxing, and until I got older and learned how to control it, the overstimulation in less organized environments was incredibly painful.

    Simple places like stores were really troublesome because, I sort of have this stress reaction when I overhear people talk about anything that is actually hurtful for them to believe. I feel like I have to save them. (Really.) So if I’m stressed I can’t go to a Costco for example. But if I bring a pair of headphones and book on tape about something that’s fairly logical then I can do it. Same way that other people use music for feedback. Music doesn’t do it for me. Only if I’m driving, and there aren’t other stimuli out there.

    I don’t really ‘work’ at anything in the tradition sense. If I just expose myself to information and my head does all the work for me. It’s like this big steam operated machine that just wants to work on problems as hard as it can or it’s annoyed and will just pick one at random. So I have to pick problems for it that are interesting. Work isn’t hard for me. It’s calming actually. But I can only handle one or two problems at a time.

    Now, it’s not a complicated concept to deal with really. If you shut down the sense of self, and shut down empathy, you still have this brain that wants chemical stimulation, but there are fewer ways of getting those chemical psychic rewards. So your brain sort of learns to specialize in the activities that give it reward. And practice makes perfect in almost everything. So you pretty rapidly get good at what you focus on: your sensory experiences in the case of normals, or gathering information in the case of people like me.

    Of course, the world is a different place now and medicine is farther along. Fifteen years ago they didn’t know what to do with me. “Curt, you have some strange obsessive focus, and we don’t have a name for it.” Even during my divorce in 08, my wife’s psychologist said ‘there is no such diagnosis’. Which, I found a really strange and meaningless thing to say, given that I got that diagnosis from one of the top three of four researchers in the field who had worked with me for years, and used me in experiments, and I was talking to some guy who counsels divorcees.

    Today a doctor takes ten minutes to say that I very mild ASD. Certain patterns are extremely fascinating and I cant let go of them. I can still jump in and out of my head, and still empathize with spoken emotions, and still read body language even if I have trouble with faces, subtle emotions, and my emotional vocabulary is smaller – and my humor more limited. I imagine for those Aspies who have it worse than I do, that they cannot reconnect with the world at all. At least for me, if I work at it, and practice, I can.

    I love people. They make no sense some of the time. Whey they are too illogical it makes me very anxious. Because I can’t save them – and they don’t want to be saved either. 🙂 But I just love them. I love human beings. All of them. (Pretty common attitude for Aspies really.)

    Funny thing I like to share, is that vey educated people often have very substantial errors in their thinking that astounds me. It’s actually emotionally safer to spend time either with engineers and other very logical people, or sort of lower middle class folk, that just talk about life experiences, than their more educated peers who make catastrophic errors on a minute by minute basis.

    I still run into people that are fascinated by my sort of talents (which you really have to experience in person apparently to grasp). But I tell them “Actually, it sucks to be me. Childhood was very difficult. Adulthood is only marginally easier. And I’m only happy because I figured it all out myself – even if too late in life. So I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

    You might want to live in a world that has us in it. We do amazing things really. But you don’t want to be one of us. We’re just a different kind of ant, a human specialization, that randomly shows up in the population and does a specific thing, so that the rest of humanity can go on without us.

    What I appreciate these days is the ability to talk about it without the pointed finger of leprosy. But I don’t. I just tell people that “eh… I’m a mild aspie. we are fascinated by shiny things.” And I laugh. Or I say “If I get too detailed with this topic its ok to tell me to shut up.” Or if someone asks me a question I say “do you really want to know, because I’ll tell you”. These are all devices that ask other people whether they want the aspie version of something or not. I just assume that they dont want it. And that works. ‘Cause otherwise you’re basically telling people that they’re stupid. (Really.) And then if you say you’re an aspie they kind of think it’s cute, and don’t get offended. You just can’t get too obsessed about the topic.

    Aspies are generally very nice. We seem to retain our childish charm longer, because really, we’re childish inside. Life has been a bit cruel and hard on me so that child has a more pragmatic instinct and the competitive part of me is a bit scary to others at times. But his joy at interacting with others is still easily excited.

    And the fact of the matter is, that if you are just nice to everyone you meet, don’t demand anything from them. And listen for and make use of, any opportunity to help them or compliment them, then in general, people will love you. You gotta give to get. And love is only as scarce as the time we have to give it.

    I smile a lot. I laugh a lot. And care about people. I try to be generous. And that’s about all of us really need from each other to make the world a wonderful place to live in. 🙂

    Cheers


    Source date (UTC): 2013-09-01 14:01:00 UTC

  • WONDER: cognitive capacity?

    http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dunbar’s_numberI WONDER: cognitive capacity?


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-28 14:19:00 UTC

  • MANAGEMENT PARADOX I always try to empower my staff. Always. I assume everything

    MANAGEMENT PARADOX

    I always try to empower my staff. Always. I assume everything I know is a theory. And that all theories are open to both falsification and revision. But that in business, as in all life, the problem is that someone has to choose when opinions and preferences differ. I dont know why. But I encounter this problem in every company I start.

    I want to say “Do not confuse the difference between your marginal improvement on the theoretical structure I created, as equal to the construction of the theoretical structure. Don’t think it’s you. Yes you’re steering. I’m still navigating.”

    But if I talk like that no one understands what the hell I am saying.


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-27 12:14:00 UTC

  • “There is no female Mozart because there is no female Jack the Ripper.” – Camill

    “There is no female Mozart because there is no female Jack the Ripper.”

    – Camille Paglia

    (Genius)


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-25 16:09:00 UTC

  • FALSE CONSENSUS BIASES (a gem) Despite the fact that the vast number of social c

    FALSE CONSENSUS BIASES

    (a gem)

    Despite the fact that the vast number of social cognitive biases we evolved with lie to us about the similarity of our thoughts, the Dunning Krueger effect prevents us from discovering it. We are happily ignorant of our differences and our instincts try to make sure we stay that way.

    (This cognitive problem is more problematic for females than for males, since they have a higher instinctual need for membership, and are more likely to obtain information from solving for consensus. Males on the other hand are always trying to stick out using facts – and we desperately seek facts, especially facts that are counter to the consensus, so that we can stick out. So we work by opposite instincts.)


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-18 06:29:00 UTC

  • THE CHOICE OF ALIENATION Alienated: ostracized, outcast, irrelevant, indifferent

    THE CHOICE OF ALIENATION

    Alienated: ostracized, outcast, irrelevant, indifferent, without value to the group, independent, alone.

    Why have we evolved this feeling?

    Because it is an instinctual warning that our status is low. Not only are we not desirable mating material. But we do not provide the other members of the group with value. They see no promise that we will provide value. And we see no promise of providing value. So our wishes can be comfortably discounted in any group decision. We need not consume group effort and resources. And we can be left behind in duress (die or be fired). We evolved that feeling so that we would be desperately incentivized to find a way to provide value. In history it was a death sentence. Today it is a subject of cognitive therapy.

    What causes this feeling in history?

    The organization of humans engaged production has been declining from the tribe (Hunter gatherer), to extended family (agrarian settlement), to nuclear family (prohibition on inbreeding), to the Isolated family(industrialism) to the individual (information age and feminism), as the division of labor and knowledge increases due the increase of people in the work-force.

    We evolved to use visible signals, emotional expressions, and personal knowledge of one another, living in bands and tribes, and we now communicate by pricing signals and a hierarchy of manners, ethics and morals, whose only visible feedback is negative, and our only success metric consumption and survival. We are not administered by the knowledge of others, but by antique religious norms, contemporary-religious norms (Postmodernism), an inconceivable network of laws, and a system of credit information which cares nothing about the vicissitudes of our lives. We live in physically isolated spaces, free from the compromise with others, free to imaging our own status within our family, tribe and nation, as whatever we dream it to be. We choose to live alone. We choose our spatial freedom. We choose our freedom to consume. To spend our efforts on the self, without compromise to the family, extended family, clan, tribe and nation. We choose it on purpose. Willingly. And almost universally, all people, who have the opportunity to choose spatial freedom, person consumption, and freedom from compromise do so whenever possible. We are confronted not with inequality, but with the pervasive evidence that we are all equal in our near-irrelevance to one another outside of the mother-child bond. The further west we move the less tangible is the tradition of kinship, so even genes do not guarantee us membership.

    But given the choice we almost always choose consumption. Because we are too selfish to forgo the opportunity for stimulation, experience, consumption and status to compromise with others and reduce both the opportunity to gain stimulation, as well as the chance that the illusion of our status, be erased by constant interaction with others who would dispel it.

    Alienation is the price we pay for selfishness. And we pay it willingly.

    We complain about the prevalence of a McDonalds hamburger, which has more calories than most people could consume in a week, and more chemicals that they could absorb in a lifetime. We complain about the cost of everything, even though our purchasing power is unrivaled.

    We criticize the cost of living near good schools. We envy those with clothes, goods, cars and homes as conspicuous consumers when the only difference between their goods and ours is the status signal that accompanies it, and the conflict this causes between the illusion of our mating status and our observable reality.

    Status in american life requires little more than a college education, a two income family, that provides someone else what they want, so that we can get what we want. But most other people want something the provision of which is mundane, uninteresting, boring, repetitious – because that is what makes something inexpensive.

    We complain about military spending, while it is paid for almost entirely by exporting debt, so the dollars can be used in the market for petroleum, and then we inflate the debt away, conveniently taxing the developed world for our military, while providing us extraordinary trading rights, and the stabilization of prices of commodities, without which americans would lose between a quarter and a third of their standard of living.

    Will women choose to restore the nuclear family and abandon the workplace? Will people forgo selling their labor at ‘jobs’ and return to direct participation in production and commerce, and the risk that comes with doing so? Will they abandon commerce altogether and resort to sustenance farming? It does not appear so.

    Will the american society become as redistributionist as the smaller nations try to? No. We are no longer kin, or near kin. and People sacrifice only for kin. Kinship can be determined by values and culture alone, not genetic relation. But we are not homogenous enough. WHy? Because human moral codes are determined by family structures, family structures by the allocation of property, and the level of technology involved in production. People will not fund alternative moral codes. Redistribution is for the small and homogenous, where homogenous means homogenous family structure, and homogenous morality, homogenous values, and marginally homogenous kinship. Trust is necessary to avoid the economic friction of corruption and a diversity of manners, ethics, morals, values and family structure leads to a competition for status signals, a competition for power, divisiveness, and a decline in trust necessary for the prevention of corruption and the low friction of trade.

    We still worship Marx’s moral vision, which all of us would embrace if it was possible, even though we know that without prices and incentives to inform us what to do, we would be at the merciless subjection of those who would command us into equality. But where our only possible equality is in poverty.

    Everyone wants the same thing: the illusion that is Denmark. The problem is, all the adults can’t figure out any other way to get there. The only way we know of is ‘small’.

    Equality of care for one another amidst the inequality of value to one another is only achievable with kin.

    And that’s where we got the feeling from.


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-16 09:43:00 UTC

  • LANGUAGE CHANGES TO REFLECT OUR CHOICE OF SPATIAL FREEDOM : BY OURSELVES AND UNH

    http://newsroom.ucla.edu/portal/ucla/changes-in-language-reflect-our-247626.aspxOUR LANGUAGE CHANGES TO REFLECT OUR CHOICE OF SPATIAL FREEDOM : BY OURSELVES AND UNHAPPY ABOUT IT.

    “a gradual rise in the use of “feel” and a decline in the use of “act,” suggesting a turn toward inner mental life and away from outward behavior. She found a growing focus on the self, with the use of “child,” “unique,” “individual” and “self” all increasing from 1800 to 2000.”


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-09 10:51:00 UTC

  • DOES AN ATTRACTIVE WOMAN DO TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY AND REMAIN FEMININE (IN ANY OC

    http://leiterreports.typepad.com/blog/2013/07/on-being-an-attractive-woman-and-being-taken-seriously-in-philosophy.htmlWHAT DOES AN ATTRACTIVE WOMAN DO TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY AND REMAIN FEMININE (IN ANY OCCUPATION) WITHOUT DRESSING ‘DOWN’ or DOWDY?

    Other commenters left very strange advice, to what common people on the street would consider a very strange question. 🙂

    Confusing separate issues:

    1) The rather strange idea that you’re different from any other woman. The fact is, you’re MORE DESIRABLE so you’re going to attract more attention, and more ENTHUSIASTIC attention.

    2) Femininity is attractive to males and that won’t stop – if it does, extinction is a possible consequence. 🙂

    3) The rather strange idea that you want to SIGNAL femininity to yourself, or to others, but not produce an equivalent RESPONSE.

    4) The rather strange idea that the problem is something in society rather than in your understanding and behavior – a strangeness that is pretty common in the feminist movement.

    5) What do you SIGNAL to males, in ADDITION to your physical attraction, femininity, and intelligence? Does that include ACCESSIBILITY? AVAILABILITY?

    6) How do all the other capable and beautiful and feminine women in the world handle this issue? Do they complain about the fact that if they SIGNAL desirability that they produce the appropriate ACTION in the population?

    As an practitioner of economic philosophy, incentives are what we deal with (in addition to prices.) And any micro-economist or behavioral economist would say this: you want X,Y,and Z benefits without paying A,B,and C, costs. In your case, it’s likely that you want to attract attention, including the heightened self image that comes from attracting attention, but you don’t want to pay the cost of rejecting the unwanted attention. (In the extreme interpretation, ethically, this means that you’re a thief, or fraud, so to speak. 🙂

    And it isn’t necessary (and it’s probably counter-productive) to ask this question of successful women in business (there are plenty). Or politics (the entertainment industry for unattractive people.) Instead, there are ready research subjects everywhere. If you were to go to high end restaurants and clubs in any major city, on the west coast, but more so in Europe, and certainly in eastern Europe, and ask the attractive female waitresses and bartenders how they deal with SIGNALING femininity, desirability, without signaling accessibility or availability, they’ll tell you – the same craft that women have used since the dawn of time. It’s how you interact with others. You do not need to dress dowdy. You might consider wearing a rock of an engagement ring – fake stone included. You do have to learn how to live as a human being in a world that is unfortunately peopled by human beings. And the honest thing to do in any social circumstance is not to advertise something then say it’s not for sale – so to speak. Or to wish that the world was not peopled by a pair of genders that have competing reproductive strategies because of asymmetry of costs and desires.

    But then, trying to commit micro thefts – get discounts as we call it in economics – is as natural a human behavior as being attracted to more fit genes. 🙂


    Source date (UTC): 2013-08-04 04:48:00 UTC