Theme: Agency

I have come to understand that like Einstein I am not really fit for the real world. I can barely take care of myself. And for myself and those like me we no longer have military, monastic, civil, or manorial service to devote ourselves to in exchange for food, lodging. Have we made a catastrophic mistake? Why have we forced all into individualism instead of separated the individualistic from the collectivist? Why must we have either a communist or capitalist order? Must we have a monopoly social democratic order? If we arose under a mix of martial, burgher, and church orders, then why was that model a failure? It wasn’t. It wasn’t a failure. The middle class allied with the lower class against the church and nobility after the thirty years war and while deserving enfranchisement, demonstrated hubris in the displacement of church and state.

Forcing man into the absolute nuclear family, forcing man to move to capital. Forcing man into monopoly social orders. All of this force is not that of the past that made us successful.

I understand the need for a market for commons. But what shall we do with the equivalent of the manor, market, military, and monastery when the great leap of the industrial revolution has passed?

I have always succeeded because of the advice of friends and loved ones. I have them in my version of prayers always. Too many to list. We are not taught as aspies that we need them to help us understand ourselves just as they need us to solve the great problems. And that this relationship is so mutually rewarding.

Clans accommodate outliers for specific uses. Troublemakers and prophets alike have value. But this is a pagan sentiment not shared in a world fined by Jewish and Christian industrial universalism.

Every realm you enter requires making new friends who understand it. I seem to be lucky finding them. Perhaps that is the value in aspie friendliness

I have never been happy in any real sense. No one would want to be me. The autistic machine is too heavy a burden for the benefit it provides. And the benefit is largely for those others who interact with you, and learn, and not to you yourself.

I understand now that I try to build great things purely as a defence against the machine. My art is an escape from it by feeding it. I am always a slave to it. It is a terrorist I must constantly mollify.

This week’s illness has been particularly difficult because I became conscious of evil people once again. And I have tried to distance myself from them for years. Even the people who do not know they are evil.

It makes me question my time. I cannot return to the states. My ex and her lawyer will terrorise me. The government will also. The north of England and Texas are the only appealing alternatives. My health will demand the latter

I love Ukraine so much, in part because they are such gentle people, so unspoiled by western decadence, and in part because they all share the same vision of government that I do: intrinsically evil.

I look at the people here and I love them. I look at Americans and British who whine in their privilege and I do not – so much.

The use of fiat money to accelerate consumption only resulted in signalling. The incentives of empire the cause the cultural fall.

The Germans were right as usual. They must awaken from their sleep. But they were right.

They built large city apartments for families. Their cities are not I Q sinks. They reversed easy divorce to preserve families.

They have a professional bureaucracy that defends them from the state and a continental legal system that while hampering innovation and driving up costs of execution works with production based industry to produce both capable talent and equally capable products.

America by contrast is built on many lies. Ideologies.

It has one virtue: it is the best place on earth for experimentation and innovation.

But it has cannibalised its labor, skill, knowledge, and industrial capital in order to defend itself from the socialist movements who sought to make production of consumption operate as did production of commons.

Now that socialism has evaporated in other than the mediocre minds of the useless generation, we seek again the new balance between capitalist innovation and social democratic redistributive production of commons.

I understand that all that prevents a bifurcated system is the status signalling, democracy that tried to redistribute status, and the digital monetary system that would make such a thing possible.

But there is no reason that innovation and wealth and predictability and redistribution cannot cohabit ate other than the lie of equality and the challenge of facing ones true status.

This is one of the many reasons why small homogenous nations are superior of the provision of commons. And that the only function of large states is war.

But in a world where we can carry rifles, RPG’s and launch nuclear missiles the value of large states is lost to the moral people and a refuge of the immoral people.

Our government has no more place in the world. It was designed to conquer a continent and hold it from the European empires. It served its full purpose by mid century. The continent is full. All it does is seek problems internationally that are better solved regionally.

The value of the continent and its people is locked away in the federal government surrounding DC. If redistributed to the cities, states, and regions, and new borders drawn, then that would unleash the level of political innovation that has not been seen since the incomplete enlightenment after the thirty years war.

The people will choose reason if it is presented to them. So in the next ten years I would ask intellectuals to suggest plans for unlocking that value and devolving the federal government form a producer of commons and a legislator to an insurer of last resort alone.

I feel that once again I may have overextended myself and caused another health problem. But hopefully I will recover enough to continue my work.

If I can get into thinking condition again I think this is the intellectual direction to take the institute.

And if I take that direction it can attract funding.

But then. I just need to make sure I am around for it.

Cause the past week made me question it.