Form: Diary

  • What Was Your First Epiphany?

    GREAT QUESTION.  HERE ARE A FEW OF LIFE’S REVELATIONS

    At the age of 6 when in one day I thought reading was an impossibly complicated idea, and then three days later, after just tortuously tryig to read books, because I was embarassed that a girl in my class could, that almost like a light switch, I started being able to read.  Doing hard stuff is hard. You just have to suffer a bit for the reward.  Best lesson in life.

    At age 7 when I understood that foreign languages weren’t ciphers (codes) but completely different words with completely different meanings, sometimes with completely different characters with completely different sounds. And thinking I was a completely hopeless idiot for thinking that they were systems of codes. 

    At the age of  9 when I understood that most adults really have no idea what’s going on, or what they’re doing, but they’re responsible for us, and we know even less than they do, so we children have to help them be successful, otherwise the whole world will fall apart into chaos.

    At the age of 12 when I understood that it was now possible to possess an original thought, and that I must remember to treat children of that age with patient respect.

    At the age of 14 when I understood that induction didn’t exist, and couldn’t exist, and I couldn’t for the life of me understand who could think so.

    At the age of 15 when I understood that mythical religion was actually a valuable thing given that you can’t explain anything very complicated to almost anyone – but religion is really easy to understand. It’s good enough for government work so to speak.

    At the age of 16 when I realized girls don’t think ANYTHING like us guys, and that it’s a hopeless, unbridgeable difference that you just have to deal with.

    At the age of 17 when I realized that despite wanting a career in science, that we don’t really understand that much more about the universe than did newton, and that experimentation was really expensive, and that I had better ways to spend my life than trying to solve that problem by spending most of my time trying to raise money for experiments that had very little chance of success. I’m not that patient.

    At the age of 19 when I realized that there is nothing in a university education that you can’t get out of books on your own, and that all universities do is sort people. They don’t really teach you anything. So allow them to sort you, and then just read what you want and need to.

    At the age of 22 when I realized that people aren’t bad to each other on purpose: they are actually clueless, and worse, there isn’t any way for the clueless to determine the difference between those who are slightly less clueless and someone who actually understands something that you should listen to.

    At the age of 24 when I realized that each of us has particular talents, and can’t all work the same way. So I let other people worry about details and I work on really big problems further out in time that they can’t work on. Cooperation is also a division of labor in time with people who cant understand each other’s jobs.

    At the age of 25 when I realized that it doesn’t matter how smart I am, if the guy I”m competing with has twenty years of experience.  It’s not brains. It’s just knowledge. And knowledge is much faster than reason.

    At the age of 26 when my health failed, that I was indeed mortal – very.

    At the age of 29 when I realized that entrepreneurship is largely a willingness to endure deprivation, pain and hardship more than other people are willing to, and its not so much about being all that smart and creative. It’s just hard work to do hard things, and that’s more than most people are willing to do.

    At the age of 30 when I realized that success and money aren’t really very useful if people are afraid of you, don’t like  you or don’t trust you. Money doesn’t keep you company and doesn’t get you access to people you want to keep you company. Ruthlessness is overrated. It’s much more profitable to have people love you.

    At age 31 when I realized that people will love you if you try to help them. So I started trying to help every single person I talked to in some way no matter how small. It is much better than spending most of your life trying to convince people to do something differently.  And they love you for it.

    At the age of 32 when I realized that reason, logic, fact and science are pretty unnatural to man, and that western civilization developed them for totally accidental reasons.  They just happen to work pretty good, and so we keep them.  But no one actually WANTS facts. They’re almost always unpleasant.

    At the age of 35 when I understood that there are maybe 1500 total ‘ideas’ in the human conceptual lexicon, but that each one of them is subject to errors in relation to every other. So the minds and libraries of the world are pretty much full of errors, with the few things that aren’t errors pretty hard to find among them.  Humans are smarter than everything else, but we’re actually pretty dumb. It takes a whole lot of us a long time to figure out even the simplest thing.

    At the age of 40 when I realized that I had made a my only really regretful mistake by not studying philosophy and going into it as a profession because I didn’t know how to earn a living at it. (You don’t. Philosophy is an avocation, not a vocation. It just happens to make you pretty successful no matter what you do.)

    At the age of 50 when I realized that after many years of hard work, I had solved a significant problem in the history of thought, but it was entirely due to all the people smarter than I am who came before me, and my achievement was just luck, timing and spending more time on it than anyone else. It was humbling.

    At 53, after two bouts of cancer, three related illnesses from a compromised immune system, divorce and a down economy, that I might actually want to slow down, and get my writing done before I run out of options on the durability of my northern european genes.

    Just a few of them. There are plenty of others. There will be plenty more I assume.

    https://www.quora.com/What-was-your-first-epiphany

  • PERSONAL: SINGLE STATUS 🙂 Lets see how long I last this time. 🙂 The problem da

    PERSONAL: SINGLE STATUS 🙂

    Lets see how long I last this time. 🙂

    The problem dating in this part of the world, is that anyone born before 1985 experienced enough life under the soviet system that they’re effectively aliens they’re so nihilistic. And those afterward are too young to have meaningful conversations with unless they’re travelled.

    Most people my age see the sunset, and are spinning down. But I don’t have much in common with them. I’m remaking myself for the third time in my life. I see the next decade as one I have to squeeze all the life out of that I can before my intellectual faculties start to wane enough that I can’t work creatively. I work like I’m starting my career.

    My health is always a risk, so I don’t live like I’m going to coast through retirement. I live like every day counts.

    Because it does.

    Illness made me love each moment of life, and intolerant of moments that I don’t.

    Its too bad that only illness teaches us that lesson.

    😉


    Source date (UTC): 2013-07-09 11:58:00 UTC

  • FROM LVIV: THANKS TO MY FRIEND: Roman Skaskiw Thanks for introducing me to a bea

    FROM LVIV: THANKS TO MY FRIEND: Roman Skaskiw

    Thanks for introducing me to a beautiful city. For introducing me to new friends. For the ballet. For the best coffee house in Ukraine. For being a great wingman. 🙂 And most of all, for all the great libertarian conversation.


    Source date (UTC): 2013-07-08 08:54:00 UTC

  • SIGH. Veronika just pretended she was an ignorant american who cant speak Russia

    SIGH.

    Veronika just pretended she was an ignorant american who cant speak Russian so that she could smoke in a no smoking area.

    🙁


    Source date (UTC): 2013-07-03 11:48:00 UTC

  • (BOOM) Scary close and dramatic lightning in Kiev tonight. Veronkia chastised me

    (BOOM)

    Scary close and dramatic lightning in Kiev tonight.

    Veronkia chastised me for getting creeped out by a horror movie the other night. Apparently a man in Ukraine isn’t allowed to get the creeps from a watching a horror movie. Which I think is silly. My father was one of the toughest people you’d ever meet – terrifying as hell really – and he got the creeps from them all the time. 🙂 It always made me laugh ’cause it made him seem almost human. 🙂


    Source date (UTC): 2013-06-28 14:04:00 UTC

  • (Things that go bump in the night.) You’d think that at my age, scary movies cou

    (Things that go bump in the night.)

    You’d think that at my age, scary movies couldn’t give me the creeps. Living alone at my (big) log house in the (very dark) woods (very far from neighbors), I wouldn’t watch them. And in this big apartment in this very old building I shouldn’t either. Suspension of disbelief and all, being what it is. Ack…. 🙂

    I feel ridiculous. 🙂 But it’s somehow satisfying. 🙂


    Source date (UTC): 2013-06-26 18:27:00 UTC

  • “YOU HAVE YOUNG EYES” Thanks. Nice thing to say. I look at other men my age and

    “YOU HAVE YOUNG EYES”

    Thanks. Nice thing to say.

    I look at other men my age and they look and think “old”. I have more in common with those in their twenties and thirties than with my peers. Because I see life as open to possibility as they do. And as worthy of risk taking as they do.

    There is a whole class of us that will never be old. We will just have older and weaker bodies. And my body certainly has racked up enough wear that even my Norman genes cant cope.

    Your view of the world is a choice you make. And you can choose to acquiesce to the wear and tear on your cells, or to preciously make use of them to gain the greatest number of experiences in life.

    And my choice is to keep experimenting with life to the last breath.

    Damn the torpedoes.

    🙂


    Source date (UTC): 2013-06-24 05:44:00 UTC

  • Oh wait! I forgot the picture. Ok, now I’m ready: Happy Father’s Day! Miss you!

    Oh wait! I forgot the picture. Ok, now I’m ready: Happy Father’s Day!

    Miss you! The weather is breathtaking and we are living in our summer universe. Hope you’ll come visit for 4th of July/your birthday!


    Source date (UTC): 2013-06-16 09:29:00 UTC

  • I HAVE A BOARD MEETING THIS MORING. SO I GO TO BED EARLY, I GET UP AT 5:00 AM ..

    I HAVE A BOARD MEETING THIS MORING. SO I GO TO BED EARLY, I GET UP AT 5:00 AM …

    …I leave the apartment, go to a nice cafe, so I won’t disturb Veronika or my Guest Max. I order coffee and orange juice. Set my alarm so I wont’ get too lost in writing that I forget the meeting. Then check the invite. And that’s when I notice that the meeting got moved to TOMORROW MORNING.

    Now, this would be OK, and I don’t mind getting up a little early and writing a bit. Although it means that I’ll be tired tonight.

    BUT … I have to go to a Bachelor Party tonight for someone very dear to me. And that means…. Well that means a lot of bad things really. 🙂

    Seriously. :/


    Source date (UTC): 2013-05-30 23:40:00 UTC

  • PROGRESS … IF IT ISN”T ONE THING ITS ANOTHER THING. 🙂 I haven’t written much

    PROGRESS … IF IT ISN”T ONE THING ITS ANOTHER THING. 🙂

    I haven’t written much on libertarianism in the past few weeks because the business has required quite a bit of attention.

    First, we had a key developer that it turned out has an alcohol problem. And slowly he degenerated into a disaster and I had to let him go. I was pretty worried about the impact but it’s actually been the opposite – a dramatic improvement. Progress is faster, the office is more peaceful and relaxed, and the quality of work is much better. I don’t like to play project manager on customer gigs because I don’t have the gift, but on products it’s something I enjoy. So, I’ve taken us all ‘Kanban’ which is a nice name for how we used to develop software with yellow pads of paper, a white board and index cards. 🙂 We have a nice organized backlog, and we’re shutting down issues as fast as we can. It’s great. In the past week we’ve gotten features and work done that I’ve been frustrated about for months.

    Today I have to pay a ton of bills both business and personal. Sigh. 🙂

    So I’ll have to get the business back on track in order to get my writing back on track.

    One book I hadn’t read before is the Age of Fracture by Daniel Rogers. Quite good. Vague. As a participant in that revolution I’m kind of curious why Rogers describes these movements as less directed, and less of a combat to kill socialism and postmodernism than they were.

    We made intentional decisions to take conservatism and libertarianism the directions that we did, just as the postmodernists did. We had the good fortune to do the world a favor and kill off communism and socialism, but postmodernism is the vampire that we can’t seem to put a stake through.

    WE DID IT ON PURPOSE WITH FORETHOUGHT.

    I don’t know about the other side. But I was writing pamphlets all over the place in the 80’s and 90’s and we were discussing strategy and acting on it. What we didn’t expect was immigration, nor the rate of the fall of the nuclear family, and the emergence of single women and single mothers as the policy determining force in the electorate.

    But our financial strategy worked. That was the interesting part.


    Source date (UTC): 2013-05-21 12:07:00 UTC