Category: Personal Reflections and Diary

TRAUMA ETC (open book policy is the best self defense) Nah. No secret. Easy: Aspiness, Alcoholic father (but Amazing mother), violent childhood with lots of fist fighting. Long history of illness, Cancer twice, some nasty biz stuff. So, I’m not special in any of those regards. Autism can be best explained by the “intense world hypothesis” which basically means we have fewer filters. So everything is LOUDER (more intense) so to speak. It took a lot of work to develop enough filters (mindfulness). Hence my understanding of the combination of the stoics on method and Nietzsche and aryanism on the ‘overman’. I’m hyper competitive and I love it, and I have low agreeableness, and an off the chart sense of orderliness, so you know…. I can (and love to) fight through anything – unfortunately, that too often includes my body’s ability to sustain life (and good judgement). lol. So it’s nothing complicated. Aspieness is just an amplifier, so Aspie+Trauma is … challenging. And that is why I try to help other guys on the spectrum. Because I understand there is very little help out there for them. When I went through it we didn’t know this stuff. I’d save others the pain if I can. It’s cathartic.

TRAUMA ETC (open book policy is the best self defense) Nah. No secret. Easy: Aspiness, Alcoholic father (but Amazing mother), violent childhood with lots of fist fighting. Long history of illness, Cancer twice, some nasty biz stuff. So, I’m not special in any of those regards. Autism can be best explained by the “intense world hypothesis” which basically means we have fewer filters. So everything is LOUDER (more intense) so to speak. It took a lot of work to develop enough filters (mindfulness). Hence my understanding of the combination of the stoics on method and Nietzsche and aryanism on the ‘overman’. I’m hyper competitive and I love it, and I have low agreeableness, and an off the chart sense of orderliness, so you know…. I can (and love to) fight through anything – unfortunately, that too often includes my body’s ability to sustain life (and good judgement). lol. So it’s nothing complicated. Aspieness is just an amplifier, so Aspie+Trauma is … challenging. And that is why I try to help other guys on the spectrum. Because I understand there is very little help out there for them. When I went through it we didn’t know this stuff. I’d save others the pain if I can. It’s cathartic.