Category: Personal Reflections and Diary

I used to feel like I was this ordinary guy with this alien monstrous magic box in my head obsessed with some puzzle unknown to me.

But over the past year Propertarianism and Testimonialism have slowly tamed this monster.

Or perhaps the monster sensing a pattern to the universe is less angered that my consciousness fails to perceive the same reality.

And that distinction between the magic box and the person that is me is beginning to disappear.

And maybe this frustration that has been a constant pressure on my mind since childhood was caused by this … Discord.

And maybe others who sense the same “wrongness” will be equally un-frustrated by the same experience.

Maybe the great lies are just more disturbing to some of us.

Or maybe there is something in the mind if western man that cannot bear the dissonance. And I and those like me are genetic search algorithms searching for correspondence.

Smith, Newton, Kant, and to some lesser degree Wittgenstein all share this same strange obsession and to equally deleterious person consequences.

Hume, Locke, and Hayek seem to bear the burden more comfortably.

You really cannot grasp – I am still grasping – what all of this means.

I really do think it is as important as the transitions to reason, rationalism, and science.

I won’t exhaust this set of ideas in my lifetime. And I am not intellectually capable of doing so except slowly.

But others may.

And I think the change for mankind will be fascinating.

Even though I doubt that I will live to see much of it.

Our ancestors stumbled on a great secret that no other people did.

And all because they needed to trust each other as equals.

OK So I want to work more today. I really do. But …. the grey matter isn’t there to work with. It’s just not.

My grandmother, in her French accent would say ‘Cuuuuuurt, you need to learn patience’. Now people tell me I am waaaay to patient. Irony of age.