(diary entry) I think I’m back. Or at least, I’m just about back. It’s taken me a year this time – possibly because I had to first get over the pneumonia, then feed and sleep myself out of exhaustion, and then to insulate myself from allergens. I’ve started working out again. Just once a week. And I have excess energy again. I walk fast again. I have enthusiasm again. Although I still seem to be extremely sensitive to getting enough sleep.
I am still having trouble “getting into the zone:, and I think it’s environmental. It’s so much easier in a country where no one speaks your language and you can’t get caught up in advertisements or the news (or the heated politics of the day.) No wonder Wittgenstein moved to Norway….. 😉 So I can’t get 36 hours of continuous thought on a subject here. And that’s slowing me down.
That said, I feel increasingly good about the grammar of decidability. And thanks to an offhand comment by John Dow the other day, I see the historical context that I hadn’t before. And that has given me a narrative to explain it within.
Recovery from overdoing it is hard. In 1982 it definitely took me more than six months. In 1987 it took me nine months. In 1996 it took me more than six months. In 2001, it took me, I think, four months – maybe six months. And recovering from the cancer in 2002… its hard to tell. More than a year. In 2008-9… well that’s hard to tell because of the illnesses, but I think it took me to 2013 to get over 2008-2012 to get reasonably straight, before my own government tried to destroy me in 2014. and I am not sure that until now I’d recovered from 2014-2016. This time it took a year for certain. So you know, I tend to burn myself out pretty seriously, and then recover, on fairly regular cycles. Every new business does it. Every divorce does it. Every episode of cancer did it.
Aspies should live simple lives. This whole normie-thing is just too hard on the body. Sure, you can mentally defeat normies really easily, but you’re still stuck with the same physiology as normies and they just can listen to their bodies better than we do – and obey them. 😉