I considered myself smart and different but not a genius. It was more that other

I considered myself smart and different but not a genius. It was more that other people were just somewhere between misguided, not very smart, and crazy. I though of them as zombies. I just loved people anyway and so I just ‘did my own thing: learning on my own and doing what was necessary to keep teachers and professors amused and enjoyed other people. If knowledge of aspiness had been available and treatment for it with ssri’s or stimulants, I think I would have sought much harder to fit in. It was after I stopped trying and just accepted that the world would like me much better if I tried to help everyone I could, and avoid stupid converstations whenever I could, and provide people only with ideas and suggestions if they asked for it.