I am a very simple automaton. I am a bit of an aspie. I sense everything intense

I am a very simple automaton. I am a bit of an aspie. I sense everything intensely. I like watching, and thinking.

But I don’t like conflict. And unfortunately, I was raised in an angry, violent, unpredictable home that I sensed intensely. I was raised in time and place where violence among young men was expected and common. It was horrible. And inescapable. So I learned to fight, to fight often, and to fight with cunning, and vicious. (Mostly wrestle larger people to the ground and exhaust them.) As an adult I carried a gun almost all the time. They are great equalizers of size, and favor thought and calm.

But amidst that chaos, anger, and violence I wanted to escape. I can’t empathize quite as much as everyone else, so I break everything into these tiny pieces that don’t require any empathy to test – they’re purely causal. And there is nothing left to reduce. I don’t have to rely on introspection or feelings.

And that’s the secret you know.

I just solved for ‘Can you damned ignorant idiots just fucking cooperate for mutual benefit so that I can be a hamster? Because as a quiet little hamster, I am too often the victim of your stupidity.’

I just did it longer and harder than anyone else had. 😉

And in the end, in my maturity, I understood that unless you raise the cost of not cooperating truthfully, by the threat of violence, that people simply are too damned lazy to learn enough about one another to identify opportunities for productive voluntary exchange.

Ergo I evolved as a consequence of circumstances to explain the natural law of cooperation – and the dedication and confidence and will to punish the fucking hell out of everyone who even THINKS about breaking it.