I wonder what it’s like for manic depressives. Must be very hard. Today I got so

I wonder what it’s like for manic depressives. Must be very hard. Today I got some preservatives in my food again. (It was so good it was worth it). But I literally can’t do anything other than write because I literally can’t trust my emotions or intuitions. Imagine not even knowing you couldn’t trust your intuition at all. For me it’s a little like being stoned without the sensory delay. I feel very @floaty@