(watching Mr Robot, and they have the character profile down so perfectly, it’s

(watching Mr Robot, and they have the character profile down so perfectly, it’s scary – they must be on the spectrum, or have done a lot of research. Autism isn’t related to schizophrenia, and I haven’t had any form of hallucination that wasn’t induced by recreational chemical entertainment – but the problem of ‘mind management’ is something I I deal with every waking moment, because the OCD effect of the autism is absolutely crushing in a way that I can’t describe other than with relentless unforgiving pressure that only lessens in social environments – I don’t really TRY to concentrate, I try to control what I concentrate on, because I can’t help but obsessively concentrate. And so you sort of develop this detachment from others if for no other reason than your always sort of occupied by either keeping the monstrosity at bay, or whatever problem the monstrosity is working on. And sometimes you just need quiet, and regular daily cycles to rest. And others you need stimulation. And your life(mood) is driven by the needs of the monstrosity. So perhaps that is why I find the elephant and rider analogy so compelling. Because I assume for most people they feel they have a lot of control of the elephant. But I feel like I have almost none. So the series is, a little like Good Will Hunting was when I was younger, somewhere bettween completely resonant, and uncomfortably biographical.)