So this is what I have learned: – I am dependent. I cannot be dependent upon men

So this is what I have learned:

– I am dependent. I cannot be dependent upon men. I feel unsafe in Ukraine, mostly because I can’t speak the language, but also because of money, and because of cultural differences – which is why I seek women to provide me comfort and women to act as intermediaries.

– I feel unsafe because of Veronika. Not only that she is a cost, but that she terrorizes me. I don’t see any of the other girls improving that condition.

– I don’t see anything coming of the relationship with tati.

– My loneliness is satisfied by my work friends, and my writing and popularity.

– I am unsure but it is just as likely that I would be happy with an assistant/housekeeper since I really do not care if I get other attention from a room mate.

– best and cheapest answer is to go solo with an assistant to help me.

– Love the idea of being near Don. Also feels like fate. I try to listen to fate.

– Think I might be better off in Seattle, but can’t afford an assistant there.

– Best answer is to keep as assistant, tati, abandon the costs of the others, and forget them and see how the year plays out.

– stay here in tallinn while the divorce plays out?