Category: Personal Reflections and Diary

(Health Diary)

So wait. If I ingest sulfites or msg then my immune system reacts to it. I get dizzy, disoriented, confused, sleep, then wake up between 1 and 12 hours later, usually with the whole can’t breathe, running nose, sneezing, thing.

But I get the SAME reaction of dizziness, disorientation and sleepiness when I come down with a cold or flu, except I also feel extremely depressed for a few hours beforehand for no reason at all (which is extremely annoying, I have to tell you.)

So both of these effects are my immune system at work – right?

I have always thought that the short intense depression was a reaction developed when I was ill for so long – the cancer was very slow growth. But maybe there is something to learn here.

I know that there is a relationship between the immune system, chronic tiredness, depression, manic depression, and schizophrenia. In that these are all immune-system related disorders of some type or other.

I am also uncomfortable with the dompaminergenic theory of evolution.

I am also uncomfortable with the clear relationship between these diseases and exceptionally creative thinkers.

So it seems increasingly likely that some childhood diseases, or what our immune systems consider poisonings, cripple our immune systems. And that we live out our lives having obtained our ‘blessing’ at fairly high cost.

I notice rothbard’s asthma when he is speaking. Although I understand similar effects can be achieved by smoking AND that smoking can medicate the effects. I know Hayek was troubled particularly late in life. And the stories about Socrates, Smith, and Kant as well as most poets, and many writers, is legendary.

I know that fasting repairs immune systems, and that in general, fasting for short periods is awfully good for you. I also know that my intellectual performance is near zero when I am hungry.

Sleep, exercise, water, lower stress, the love of good people.

And a good austrian doctor … lol

Before and during college I used to love working Saturdays in retail, and have Sunday and Monday off.

On Saturday I would only have to think about customers – not corporate stuff. Customers are not in ‘work mode’ when they talk to you. There is less general ‘noise’ from the street traffic and bustle.

I worked in commercial art and printing supplies. So it’s not like I was selling clothes or pizza. People were either hobbyists or professional artists or designers, or architects or engineers, or students. So I was dealing with an interesting class of people. And at that time, it was a manual rather than software craft. It took quite a bit of work to do the most basic thing.

People are much less well behaved in public today. We have far more underclass participating in retail. So it’s not the same experience. Amercians are more selfish and feel more privileged, so it is a less pleasant one.

I am not one of those people who gets tired of customers. I like solving their problems. I have never had a problem firing bad customers – even in my teens. “I want to help you. It makes me happy to help you. But I can’t help you if you are unkind to me.” This has always worked in every industry. I don’t talk about duty or respect. I talk about care and kindness.

( And if you have ever been opposite me in hostile negotiations you know that I am not pleased by them but I have a ‘talent’ for them. I hold the moral high ground. And win or lose that is the right action for me. )

I have always found greater comfort in the presence of calm crowds, whether in the campus union reading, or in the shopping mall, or in the open desk area working, or in the coffee shop designing software or writing.

Cause I love my fellow humans.

Every lunatic one of them.

(Even those that need paternalism so that they don’t hurt mankind).