Yet you cannot articulate how. Because you are experiencing panic because you re

Yet you cannot articulate how. Because you are experiencing panic because you recoginise you are out of control.

There is also no reason why you can claim artistry when you require others IP to do so. That’s just parasitic free riding. In other words you’re making excuses for your lack of talent and innovation when you’re really just asking to free ride on the talent and creativity of others.